Low Sun = Low Energy
Currently standing at the south-tip of Europe near Gibraltar. We are approaching the lowest energy levels for the solar collectors and the damp air is crawling into the mattress at night. Heres a little update on my status:
I work on Temple of Rust almost every day for 1-4 hours (depending on available power) and seriously enjoy doing that. The fast life that I try to leave behind still haunts me sometimes and I pressure myself to 'give it some more'.
When I changed both of my games to FREE I was also releasing a lot of pressure/hopes that I accumulated over the last (almost 20 Years) - since I started making fan/mod content for Quake 3 Arena in 1999. Making games was my 'career choice' since I could think about careers. Now I see that I was conditioned by my social environment and that I was trying to satisfy the images that others had imposed on me and that it had nothing to do with my initial drive. So I'm digging myself out of that position again - slowly.
Now I don't have any form of financial or social security, the bus is rusty and needs repairs. We're going to install a wood stove soon and I'm looking forward to that. These are a few things that need my attention at the moment. I try my best to make some money busking but even there I get illegally chased away sometimes because shop owners want to sell their products. But when I play guitar and sing on the street I at least feel much more in contact with life and that is important for me.
Anyway things won't be moving fast here but I won't and can't stop making games. It will stay a big part of me and I'll keep updating my stuff as long as I can!
Regards,
James
I work on Temple of Rust almost every day for 1-4 hours (depending on available power) and seriously enjoy doing that. The fast life that I try to leave behind still haunts me sometimes and I pressure myself to 'give it some more'.
When I changed both of my games to FREE I was also releasing a lot of pressure/hopes that I accumulated over the last (almost 20 Years) - since I started making fan/mod content for Quake 3 Arena in 1999. Making games was my 'career choice' since I could think about careers. Now I see that I was conditioned by my social environment and that I was trying to satisfy the images that others had imposed on me and that it had nothing to do with my initial drive. So I'm digging myself out of that position again - slowly.
Now I don't have any form of financial or social security, the bus is rusty and needs repairs. We're going to install a wood stove soon and I'm looking forward to that. These are a few things that need my attention at the moment. I try my best to make some money busking but even there I get illegally chased away sometimes because shop owners want to sell their products. But when I play guitar and sing on the street I at least feel much more in contact with life and that is important for me.
Anyway things won't be moving fast here but I won't and can't stop making games. It will stay a big part of me and I'll keep updating my stuff as long as I can!
Regards,
James